Emotions

This morning I was going thru some of the pictures when we brought Lia home from the hospital.  I was looking at pictures of the boys in AWE of her and their excitement of having a sister. I was overcome! In fact I'm crying now!  I'm so blessed!  I have 6 wonderful, beautiful, talented, smart, strong, loving, tender, amazing children!  I am so grateful that Heavenly Father trusted me so much to give them to me.  They are such a blessing in my life!  Each one of them brings me TRUE JOY!  Today I'm grateful for them!             I can not express in words how much I love them!!  

Keeping it together

There are so many days when I just want to go back to bed! But I don't.
This morning was no different.  My problem is that I go to bed WAY to late. Last night I was
in bed after midnight.  And when my alarm went off this morning at 7 it was hard for me to get out of bed.
As I laid there I thought about all of the thing I wanted (needed) to get done today.
-Fold the laundry. (there was 3 HUGE loads waiting for me on the couch)
-Put the laundry away
-Make breakfast
-Get Cody ready for school
-Have Cody do his math paper while eating breakfast
-Start another load of laundry
-Unload the dishwasher
-Do the breakfast dishes
-Get the other boys dressed and ready for the day and for school
-Think about and make a list for Costco
-Get in the shower
-Hope that Lia sleeps in this morning
-Nope she didn't
-Feed Lia
-Oh good she went back to sleep
-Thank Dan for taking Cody to school so that I don't have to
-Think about dinner so that at 5 o'clock I'm not wondering what to make
-Chicken Fajitas it is
 Now it's 10 am WOW!  It's already been a BUSY morning.

Then I started to think about gratitude.
and the above list started to have a different meaning.
Instead of it being a list of "things to do" it became a list of things "I GET to do".
I'm SO grateful that I'm able to stay home with my children.
I'm SO grateful that Dan has a great job.  That it's stable and that we have health insurance.
I'm SO grateful that Dan LOVES me!
I'm SO grateful that Heavenly Father has blessed me as a mother. I have been SO blessed.
I'm SO grateful for my family, children.
I'm grateful that my body lets me nurse Lia and all of my children for that matter.
I'm grateful for my BOYS!  Through the fighting and teasing they really do love each other
and have each others backs.  How wonderful for them.
I'm grateful for Lia.  Having a daughter is AMAZING.
Each time we all look at her and she gives us that beautiful smile….I count my blessing again.

My heart is full!  I am blessed!  I've come to realize that if there are dishes in the sink, I can ALWAYS
wash them later.  It is important to STOP and not let TIME PASS ME BY.
I NEED TO ENJOY things more.  All the Little Things.  All The Small Celebrations!

~For Me~

I've had many thoughts lately about starting my OWN PERSONAL BLOG (journal).
And today I decided that I need to start!  


There are so many things I do for everyone else and when it comes to me--well, oftentimes I get pushed to the wayside.  So this blog is for me--my thoughts, my frustrations, my joys, and celebrating even "the small celebrations" in everyday life.  


Today was Super Bowl Sunday.  We spent the evening at Tyler and Jamie's house.  It takes about 30-40 minutes to get there.  As we drove Dan and I talked about how fast our children are growing up.  I cried the whole drive.  I am so sad (and also at the same time happy) that my children are getting older.  I have no children in the Nursery at church.  Cody's 8, he learning to play the piano.  Steven and Luke are 6 1/2.  Kyle and Jack are going to be 4 in 8 days.  And my sweet baby girl is 5 months.  I wish I could stop time! Or just shrink wrap them all!!!  I really need to savor these fleeting moments.  


All to often I am a stress case.  Frustrated that the house it dirty, that it's 5 o'clock and I have not even started dinner, that I do 3 loads of laundry a day---that the laundry is NEVER ending. I feel that there are too many times that I am focusing on the negative things about my life.  When I SHOULD be focusing on "the small celebrations".  


Like for instance, today going to church.  (which is most often a JOKE) but we go and we do it to teach our sweet children that our Heavenly Father is so important.  Today, we made it through Sacrament Meeting without having to take out one child.  HUGE SUCCESS!!!! And at the same time a "small celebration".  


I'm hoping this blog (journal) can be focused on "the small celebrations" in my life.  Of course there will be frustrations, and what I'm hoping is that thru the frustrations I can uncover "the small celebrations" no matter how hard they are to find.  


One things for sure--I love my life!  I love my children!  I am living my dream!  I have always wanted to be a mother-- and I'm doing just that.  


So here's to discovering, thru trials, frustrations, life, laundry and happiness those "small celebrations".